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It weirds me out whenever I come on here and see that old journal entry. It's like a strange time capsule from a time that is alien and far-removed.
Lots of things have changed. I don't write anymore, and I don't want to write. I don't draw anymore, either. I'm going to SDSU as a History major, with an interest in teaching. The girl I was head over heels for broke up with me around Christmas. I had really horrific panic attacks last August/September and my chronic insomnia got much, much worse. I started therapy for a deep depression I've had for years but never admitted to myself or anyone else; that's gone well. The anxiety and depression are much reduced, though the insomnia persists.
Life has changed, and so have I.
If anyone follows me on here, then I'm sorry for not posting much. It probably will stay scarce. My creativity is pretty much gone, but I'm a happier human being now.
You can find me at on Tumblr; my blog is atamajakki. I'm very active there.
Lots of things have changed. I don't write anymore, and I don't want to write. I don't draw anymore, either. I'm going to SDSU as a History major, with an interest in teaching. The girl I was head over heels for broke up with me around Christmas. I had really horrific panic attacks last August/September and my chronic insomnia got much, much worse. I started therapy for a deep depression I've had for years but never admitted to myself or anyone else; that's gone well. The anxiety and depression are much reduced, though the insomnia persists.
Life has changed, and so have I.
If anyone follows me on here, then I'm sorry for not posting much. It probably will stay scarce. My creativity is pretty much gone, but I'm a happier human being now.
You can find me at on Tumblr; my blog is atamajakki. I'm very active there.
End of Summer
Whelp, school's back in.
I never wrote Dead Noir beyond a few early pages that I really hated. The concept just lost all appeal to me very quickly, which I'll confess made me rather sad. It had potential, I just lacked the skill for it.
Those few little cyberpunk vignettes (listed on my HD as 'cybershit,' cybershit 2 the return of shit,' and 'cybershit 3 the shittening,') are as far as that story got. I do quite like Clif, but the entire concept basically just felt like I was trying and failing to emulate William Gibson's early work.
This was supposed to be the summer where I wrote a ton and got super fit. I'd promised myself a page a nigh
New Writing Project
Happy Summer!
I haven't posted jack shit in forever for a multitude of reasons; school eating all of my time, very little inspiration, and the death of my skill with any visual medium are all major culprits.
However, I'm very excited to keep writing! My current big idea is about a pair of supernatural individuals in 1940s USA. Rick Mendez is a mobster who gets shot in the back by a former friend, and then makes a deal with something unpleasant and undead to come back to life with a few extra perks. Jack Rosenburg is an Army man, sent home early due to a nasty leg wound, with the ability to see ghosts and some slight magical powers. The two
Mass Effect 3 Writing
I don't have ME3 yet, but god damn does it look good. Probably put 40 hours into ME and around 30 into ME2.
Can't wait to get my grubby paws on it - it seems to be wonderful. But there are so many plot fuck-ups that are driving me insane; the little kid recurring in the nightmares, the motivation of the Reapers, the endings. Good Lord, those endings.
So I guess this is asking if I should take a whack at some Mass Effect fanfiction/alternate ideas? Would be for my femShep ( Colonist, romanced Garrus, nuked Ashley, got entire squad out of Suicide Mission) but be fairly neutral.
Exciting shit
Been a big week!
Dad's wife had a babby last Thursday; his name is Jack, he's an Aquarius, and he's pleasantly plump. I'm not a baby person, and I'm afraid we won't be too close (it's quite an age difference) but I'm determined to be the awesome older Bro that embarrasses him and gives him violent games before he should have them.
Also momentous is my girlfriend and I being together for six months last Friday, which is significantly less important than the babby but still very meaningful to me. She's still lovely, we're still madly in love, and I'm still wondering what I did right.
I like writing these journals, but having nobody read them
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